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Thu, Nov. 6th, 2003, 01:12 am
whoaminobody: "A Day to Remember - Lest We Forget" (WAS "Remember for those who forget")

(Revised - this should be the last but I want everyone's opinion since I might have to read this in front of the school. [sighs] ~Liz~)

Holding him
looking at him
watching him take his last breath
blood everywhere
explosions in the background
and all I do is stare
tears form in my eyes
as I watch life drain from him
trembling
I hold him tighter and shake him
I cry out as tears stream down my cheeks
screaming "NO!"
over and over and over again
wanting him to come back
wanting him to still be
"NO! It's not fair!" I yell at the heavens
"Come back, come back," I whisper to him
the explosions come closer
I must put him down
I realize my decision
I realize I have no choice
I realize what I have to do
I let him fall
the few inches
to the ground
"Goodbye," I whisper
and kiss his forehead
I rip the dog tags from his neck
and run and run
and run and run
tears spill from my eyes
and are carried away by the wind
revealing all my sadness
revealing all my fears
I have no time to recover
no time to say what I wanted to say
no time before death destroys
the wall around my heart
piece by piece
The wind brushes through light-brown gray-streaked hair
piercing blue eyes stare at the names on the wall
a large hand reaches up
and traces a chiseled name with a finger
caressing it
like it was a face
his face
I feel the regret
but understand and accept
looking down into my other hand
I slowly reveal the dog tag that I kept
it was his
it belonged to the man
whose name is written on the wall
That flash
that wound
that thought of him torn from me
reopened
Tears spill from my eyes
and are carried away by the wind
"Not enough time. It's not enough time," I whisper into my clenched fists
"But you remember," a familiar voice whispers
I look behind
around
nothing
no one's there
just a voice from the past
reminding me
for all the pain I 've gone through
for all the pain of those who have been lost
for all the suffering done
I am still here
to remember
to remind us all
to remember
those who fought
fought for us all
I am to remind you
that you may know what happened
that you may know the truth
and remember it
Be strong Soldier
be strong for us
Remember Friend
Remember for those who don't know -- or never knew
Tell Brother
Tell those who don't know
so that we will all know
and remember
and I pray
never have to say the same "Goodbye"
How can you say "But I don't have the time!"?
When each of those names on the wall
found the time to give a life time
it won't be enough
and it never will...


(Written) LMF Nov 03, 2003
(revised)LMF Nov 06, 2003

Wed, Nov. 5th, 2003, 01:13 am
whoaminobody: Veteran's Day Poem(Uncle Mark's Revision --I love his opinion)

“Remember for those who forget”

holding him
looking at him
watching him take his last breath
blood everywhere
explosions in the background
and all I do is stare
tears form in my eyes
as I watch his life drain from him
trembling
I hold him tighter and shake
I cry out as tears stream down my cheeks
screaming "NO!"
Shaking him
over and over and over again
wanting him to come back
wanting him to still be
"NO! It's not fair!" I yell at the heavens
"Come back, come back," I whisper to him
slowly I begin to put him down on the ground
realizing the explosions are coming closer
I realize my decision
I realize that I have no choice
I realize what I have to do
I let him fall the few inches to the ground
"Goodbye," I whisper and kiss his forehead
as I rip his dog tags from his neck and run
and run and run and run
tears spill from my eyes and are carried away by the wind
revealing all my sadness
revealing all my fears
I have no time to recover
no time to say my goodbyes
no time to say what I wanted to say
no time
no time before death takes
and destroys the wall around my heart piece by piece

the wind brushes through light-brown gray-streaked hair
piercing blue eye stare at the name on the wall
a large hand reaches up
fingers press into a name
caressing it like it was his face
I see his face
I feel the regret but understand and accept
looking down in my other hand
slowly I reveal the dog tag that I kept
it was his
it belonged to the man whose name is written on the wall
that flash
that wound
that thought of him torn from me reopened
tears spill from my eyes and are carried away by the wind
"Not enough time. It's not enough time," I whisper into my clenched fists

"But you remember," a familiar voice whispers
I look behind
around
nothing
no one's there
just a voice from the past
reminding me
that for all the pain I 've gone through
for all those who have been lost
and all the suffering done
I am still here to remember
to remind us all to remember
those that fought
fought for us all
I am still here to remember
that you may know what happened
that you may know the truth

Be strong Soldier
be strong for us
Remember Friend
Remember for those who don't know -- or never knew
Tell Brother
Tell those who don't know
so that we will all know and remember
and prayfully never have to say the same "Goodbye"

How can you say "don't have the time!"
When each of the names on the wall found the time to give a life time
it won't be enough
it never will

(revised)LMF Nov 05, 2003

Tue, Oct. 21st, 2003, 10:47 am
whoaminobody: Numb...

this ache
I have this ache
I have this throbbing discomfort in me
a twist and quizziness in my gut
I feel sick
I can't think
I have this song playing in the background
I quit hearing the lyrics a while ago
It makes sense to me
it makes perfect sense
"Lover I don't have to love" by Bright Eyes

today
today something happened
something strange and odd
I wanted to hurt myself
I could see in my mind's eyes
a steak knife in my right hand
my exposed left handed wrist there on the table
and I just slide it open
I don't feel it
I don't feel the cold steel against my warm skin
I don't feel it piercing my skin
the ripping
there is not sound or pain
just the watch of blood slowly spilling forth
oozing
and all my pain
and all my anguish would disappate

another unusual incidint happened today
I got a hug
a wonderful hug
with warmth and love
with compassion and caring
I felt nothing of it
I felt none directed towards me
and yet it was

I'm numb
I'm losing my feelings
my emotions are just disappearing
[chuckles] Senior-itis....
I don't care
I want to though
I want to feel
I want to feel something different than this constant throbbing
this pulling and ripping
this..this exposure in my chest
this secret that I ignore and forget

"Love's an excuse to get hurt..."

I always seem to be reminded at some point
where I fall
my fall
where I had rise
I descend with a rush
with crashing and smashing
screaming
tearing
ripping
cutting
unfeeling

....numb

20 Oct 03

Tue, Oct. 7th, 2003, 08:03 pm
distillersg: (no subject)

oops sorry, stupid client

Wed, Oct. 1st, 2003, 11:05 am
whoaminobody: ALWAYS LOST and ALWAYS CONFUSED

I feel lost and confused all the time
like a child no more than five
all these problems
all the conflicts that come from nowhere
I cannot handle them

All I want to do is cry
I want someone to hold me and comfort me
I want them to say "It's gonna be fine, baby doll. It's all gonna be fine" then rub my head
but I'm not five anymore
and no one will do that for me
I'm nearly an adult
I can almost vote
no so close to drink
no would there be a point

I'm seventeen years old
stuck in between two worlds
one of inital learning
and the other of learned responsibility
I'm lost in a world of confusion and dismay
no...

I'm just lost.....

09.29.03

Sat, Sep. 27th, 2003, 11:53 am
stigmatictear: (no subject)

I know you all love your mirror aadnnnanndnnandnndnnnddd....Collapse )

Wed, Aug. 27th, 2003, 01:09 pm
broken_apathy: (no subject)

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<sub<center>___When you're left with only a bullet
I'll bring the trigger and a promise to pull it
I'll be the end of everyone who's ever entered your life
And take the pieces out of it.
I'll give you enough time to regain your composure
To reconstruct a heart that's torn apart from overexposure
I know forever isn't long enough to forget the faces and places
...that played out your tragedy___</center></sub>

Sun, Aug. 24th, 2003, 05:37 pm
whoaminobody: Yells of pain to lettered apologies(poem)

leave me alone
damn you
leave me alone

please just leave me a lone to die
just like everyone does

they say they care
but it's a lie
they don't
the use you for their own purposes
then throw you away like trash

tick tick tick goes the watch on my wrist
I just sit here scribbling damn words down on a piece of paper in hope to calm down the raging emotions of destruction

I want to cry
I want to puck a fragile object and throw it acros the room to hear it crash and break against the wall
I hate you
you rip out my heart just to cause me pain don't you?
your craziness is just a false cover to gain you an excuse to say harsh words against your kin isn't it?
And I'm the only to see it?

No of course not
'cause that'd make you a bad person at heart where you're not
but you still left me

you walkled down the aile and left
we argued and you got yout belongings and you walked out the door
slamming it in my face
you keep walking teill you're outta the building in the car in front of all theose people we know
you just got up and left me wit three children for ome big greasted brunette with ruby red lips
you said goodnight, turned off the lamp, rolled over to sleep
instead of waking up
you left me there with a casket containing your body for all the world to see

I hate you bastard
I want to be alone
I don't want to feel
I don't
want
anything fron you

and even though you've caused me so much pain
even though all the hardships and mess
even though you left me there with thi hollow replacement of a man of who you ued to be

I still love yuo daddy
but I can't handle you right now
I'm sorry

LMF 24 August 2003

Sat, Aug. 16th, 2003, 02:30 pm
whoaminobody: Life (poem)

"Life"

My entire life I've lived in a world all my own
All the problems could be solved
All would be happy, especially me
I was never alone
I lived in my very own fantasy
all the world all my own to escape to
to run from the yelling
the pain
the hurt all around me
My friends never knew the reason I was so good in our-my world and they weren't
I always had the worse part of it all
their's was normal
but the worst of times I couldn't leave
I couldn't run far enough, hide deep enough to stop the yelling of my parents from invading my ears
and then one day it stopped

Family seperated and grew apart
all changed
all went on their own
only to be together again but never the same ever again
Welcome to my Life.
Wish I could accept it like you can
but that's not me.

LMF 15 Aug 2003 7:06pm

Fri, Aug. 15th, 2003, 08:57 pm
melancholybliss: (no subject)

2nd born, 2nd girl,
2nd best, 2nd hand love,
2nd place
and who'd waste a second
on someone like me...

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